Change is in the Wind

Please excuse the cliche, but the wind happens to be lowing as I look out of my bedroom window and change is something that has been on my mind. We get comfortable sometimes in life, content.  The yoke finally fits and we’ve worn a nice smooth groove as we turn the wheel. All the things that used to bother us about our lives, sink into the background as they become the norm. And perhaps we forget ourselves. We put who we are on hold for… For what? I don’t know and it worries me. That I’ve allowed myself to sink in so comfortably. Thankfully life has a way of waking us up (as do the ones who love us most), they shake us a little, until the scales fall off our eyes and we can see clearly again. Just what it is we are doing and why we are wasting so much to do it.

Comfort is an important part of life, but it isn’t all there is to it. We forget what it means to be adventurous, to take risks. We sacrifice challenge for consistency. I don’t want to do this anymore. I’m so much better than where I am. I have a fantastic mind, a fantastic education. I have friends and family who support me whatever I may do and I know Diana is right there beside me as well. Why am I wasting all of that on Borders? They don’t deserve all of the extra effort I have put in there, they’ve certainly never compensated me for any of it. Borders provides a check and a meager one at that. That’s it.  Nothing more. Yet, I have allowed myself to get completely caught up in it.

It isn’t worth it. There is so much more to this life then getting caught up in a stupid job. I’m not going to spend anymore of my energy on it. It can be better spent looking for a new job, working on getting in to graduate school and spending time with my friends and loved ones.

So this is just a notice that changes are coming. It won’t be easy to make them.  But I can do it, and my life is worth more than what I am doing with it.

We consider others crazy when they have the courage to follow their dreams. It would be a better world if all of us were a little more crazy then we are.

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